When we arrived at Kingston University on the 13th of September for our introductory day, all of our tutors stood up, introduced themselves and told us all how difficult this year would be. They told us that we should wave goodbye to our social lives, buy ourselves a good diary and resign ourselves to being hassled, exhausted and completely and utterly committed to our course for the next 12 months.
At the time, I accepted this as a challenge. "Bring it on," I thought. I found my BA difficult - not only the studying but having to deal with housing problems, awkward flatmates, financial troubles and medical issues - but got on with it. I seemed to have a knack of just getting on with everything and managed to balance my study with two part time jobs, a boyfriend, a few glasses of wine during the week and still come out with a decent 2.1 degree. So yeah, I'll admit I thought I had it sorted.
However, I am beginning to feel a slight sense of panic. There just do not seem to be enough hours in the day all of a sudden. Where has all the time gone?!
With two exams looming, I am sure I am not the only student on this course to suddenly - to put it mildly - be freaking out about how much there is to do and how there literally just does not seem to be enough time to do everything.
And I really am trying: I carry my law books around with me, I see Teeline special outlines every time I put a pen to paper and I am constantly on the lookout for potential stories for the Kingston Courier.
Still, it seems that our tutors warning were true; hello, hassle, hello exhaustion. Commitment... well, personally I would love to tell my commitment to sod off for a few hours so I can get a decent nights sleep without dreaming about the requirements for an Fair Comment Defence (media law has well and truly got to me)but despite all the fear and the anxiety and the mind boggling amount of items on my to-do list, I love my course too much.
Thankfully, despite the fact that this week my brain wants to shut down completely due to media law overload and my writing hand wants to resign due to serious "shorthand-claw", I am loving every terrifying second. I am learning new techniques of writing, fine tuning things I already knew, discovering multimedia aspects of journalism that I never knew existed - live blogging was an eye opener - and how to avoid creating "substantial risk of serious prejudice."(Get that, McNae's) .
All in all, although I am finding it difficult at the moment, I know that my passion and enthusiasm will get me through to the end of this course. I know that I have the ability to do well at this course and I know that it is going to take a lot of hard work and determination and I am sure that I will at some point shed some tears about something or another. But I also know that it will all be worth it in the end.
So, again, I say, "Bring it on." Bring on the assignments, bring on the exams and the stress and the panic because I know I can take it, I know that its going to be worth the effort and that in 12 months time there will be a silly graduation cap out there with my name on it .
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